This is Me: Finding My Voice

Hi. It’s been a while.

I’m still here. We thank God.

Happy new year.

I’m still unemployed. The past month has been good. I’ve remained hopeful, I’ve had interviews, and occupied myself with other things (like subbing, sims, etc). I’m trying to eat healthier and go to the gym more.

But today? Today is hard. I woke up heavy. I’m tired and over it. And it might be because I had back-to-back interview days and then woke up with nothing in my calendar.

I trust God. It is well, but dang it this is sucks. It’s been almost 9 months. I believe that God is working and this will work out for his good, I’m just over it.

And going on LinkedIn isn’t helping. Seeing people i went to college succeeding, founding startups, getting promoted and I don’t want to b jealous but I am. I feel that my life is a stalemate, and I don’t know next direction.

But it is well with my soul.

I am grateful that I serve a God that I can simultaneously know it will work out while feeling my human emotions. This isn’t the end, but it feels exhausting. Savings drained, credit card bills high, yet it is well.

That’s all I have.