This is Me: Finding My Voice

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  • Tired (1/26/26)

    Hi God,

    I know this post is earlier than normal, but I feared it wouldn’t get done if not now.

    I woke up with a heavy heart and knew I didn’t get the North Carolina job. I tried to believe but I think you were preparing me.

    I wrote the songs today, just so I wouldn’t forget lol. The song was breathe but also surrounded. Twofer.

    I don’t know what this means, but accepting that he is God. Yea.

    I actually didn’t’ find out until after my interview for another job which I didn’t do great. And it was so funny, because I was ok with not doing great because I knew that the job for me was in North Carolina. Immediately after I log off, I see the email. And then these 2 songs came on

    A very CCM mood.

    It was funny, I was sad for 10 minutes and now the primary emotion is tired.

    My faith isn’t that God won’t do it. It’s why this path. Why the long road? I’m trying to figure out what else I can do. And it’s so perfect that I’m on the fast because I just wanted to eat chocolate and popeyes and cry. But I sat with it. Talked with God. I wasn’t angry or crying reckless like I’ve done in the past. Still confused because I thought North Carolina was the place but hey! And I think a fear of mine is that I didn’t hear you at all. So now I’m doubting the voice in my head. Because it just led me to a lie. Or maybe a not yet.

    I don’t know, you aren’t telling me explicitly what to do. I was annoyed about having nothing to rely on concerning my future 9 months ago and I’m still annoyed. Because I’m ready, I just want to know what. Or even what good is it to constantly have to not work. Just sit in unemployment and rejection. How much more breaking down do I need for it to be satisfactory for my loving father

    …I guess I am a little angry lol. welp. But more just hurt. And embarrassed. I told so many people this was the job. And now it’s not. And now I have to see pity and hear the questions in their heads. “what is wrong with her”. lol. What is wrong with me?

    I did eat leftovers. I wasn’t going to eat at all but that would be reckless to go 24 hours without food. My body is still a temple even if I feel like a loser. I also don’t think I’ll go to the gym today. Or maybe I will I don’t know.

    Today, I’m just going to be sad. Tomorrow I’ll clean my room and bathroom (what I was supposed to do) and Wednesday I’ll go back on the job hunt.

    It’ll be 10 months on Sunday. And I know I’m not a failure but I sure as hell feel like it. I am not doubting your plan I’m just tired. Tired of that slight disappointment when I don’t get the job as well as reaffirmation in the lie that I’m a failure.

    I feel like the past 2 months I’ve really seen the value of a partner because friends are great, but I’ve never felt so alone. But waiting on that too ahaha.

    I’m going back to sleep or snooze or I don’t know. The tears are forming again.

    I trust you God. This is just tiring.

    Tisa

  • What If

    Yes, the world is dark-
    Yes, hope can seem futile

    But what if we chose to keep on believing
    not in people, or government, but in Yahweh

    Yes, sin has made the world fractured-
    In ways that we understand and can’t
    But the world has always been impacted by sin
    The only constant has been God’s goodness

    The same God that has been there when all the empires have fallen
    is the same one who was there when new countries risen.
    Who was there before our first breath
    And will be there for our last

    Who has seen genocides start and end
    but has also seen marriages start and newborns born

    So instead of sitting in darkness
    wondering why us
    wondering how much longer

    What if we sit with God
    and not only wait on him
    but be the change

    What if instead of waiting to die to get to heaven
    we bring heaven to Earth

    What if instead of letting the world take our seasoning
    we stand tall in us being the salt of the world?

    We let our light shine bright because we place our hope in something greater.

    Hmm. What if?

  • Shouts of Joy (1/25/26)

    Hi God,

    It’s me, your daughter.

    Happy snow day! I didn’t go outside once today but everytime I see snow it reminds me of the fact that no two snowflake are the same and how, like snowflakes, we are uniquely and wonderfully made (I hope that’s not a fake fact).

    Today was restful and insightful. I don’t know what time I slept but because church in person was cancelled I didn’t set an alarm. I woke up at 11:06 confused lol. But the word was really impactful (being salt of the earth and what that means).

    I’m trying to be better at seeing people’s journey through your eyes and not c0omparing it to mine. Ie when someone says they’re fasting to 12, my first thought is to be grateful that they’re taking that initial step and not why can’t they do more for God. Although I didn’t enjoy the way I was raised in the church, I’m realizing that I took a lot of their hardcore/all or nothing approach to you than I realized or wouldn’t have.

    I meditated on Psalm 27 again today. I thinkg we’ll move to Psalm 28 toomorrow (unleess you tell me no). The verses that really stood out to me were v.6 and 14. It reads as:

    And now my head shall be lifted up above my enemies all around me, and I will offer in his tent sacrifices with shouts of joy; I will sing and make melody to the LORD;Wait for the LORD; be strong, and let your heart take courage; wait for the LORD!
    – Psalm 27:6;14

    I know I said this in a previous post, but again today, I’ve just been singing shouts of praise with songs and melodies. But also reminding myself that fear doesn’t control me. I think that’s how I interpret the phrase “let your heart take courage”. I’m letting my heart believe that a job I haven’t heard back from is mine.

    I know I said I believe the North Carolina job is mine, but I’ve been wondering if it’s the Virginia one. Or am I acting like Abraham and impregnating Hagar instead of waiting for Isaac? Like I wasn’t going to study for the job interview, but I also want to be excellent as a child of God.

    Sigh, God give me clarity.

    I did make dinner! stew and rice and spinach. And it was great! The thing with the corporate fast is that I am realizing how little energy I have in the morning. Like I actually need to adjust and make sure I’m still taking care of my body (the temple).

    The no desserts part of fast is hitting. But it’s so funny because my skin is so much clearer lol. And I don’t have withdrawal craving. It is telling how much sugar I consumed daily. I think as the fast is winding down, something I’m not looking forward to is how much distractions there are in my life. Like I’ve loved this time with you unbothered. But I know I allow distractions from letting me seek your face. And not having social media, forcing my flesh not to eat, I don’t want to lose that intimacy.

    This is the last week of corporate fasting. The third week is usually where I find loopholes and “manipulate” the flesh so I’m not really sacrificing. Discipline is really hard for me. It’s like that verse says, “the spirit is willing, but the flesh is weak (Matthew 26:41)”. And my flesh is weakkk. I already feel myself slipping with the gym and these blogs. And I really don’t want to slip with you God.

    Side note but these ads aren’t helping. Why did I see two ads for oreo thins? My favorite type of oreos. And I’ve never seen an ad before this fast started. And yesterday at my friend’s place, they had cheesecake, oreos cups. I really hadn’t been tempted until yesterday.

    Sigh, let’s pray I sleep earlier than normal and wake up at a good time.

    Love,

    Tisa

  • Don’t Look Back (1/24/26)

    Dear God,

    You know, I always come here to ask and complain but I never stop and see how you’re doing. So how are you God? What are you feeling? Someone reminded me that it’s important to stand still with you in silence.

    Today was calm. I’m realizing through this that I don’t do a lot lol. But it was my friend’s surprise bday party in Philly! It was originally supposed to be a sleepover but because of the snow I decided to come back early.

    But before even going back to Philly, my friend interviewed me for her school project (she’s in divinity school) and that was dope. And I feel like I have a lot of thoughts but no where to put them (besides this blog loll) and I want to be in conversation with people and talk.

    There was this song from this worship pastor that I’ve been coming back to. But it made me remember how great you are, the one from tribe of Judah. But what does that mean? That you are the lion from Judah? Examining that right now lol.

    One thing God has been showing me is how much I have to train my mind and body to do things even when I don’t feel like it. One thing that I’ve been slacking is nightly devotionals. But after listening to the song, I started 1 Chronicles! To dig specifically in the genealogy of Judah.

    I met up with a childhood friend who lives in Philly. The convo was brisk unfortunately and surface level and I felt bad because I made her come out in the cold but I think I need to remind myself that people will come out if I ask even for a moment. I’m probably (definitely) overthinking. I do that a lot.

    The surprise party was amazing! She was so surprised and felt loved. It was great seeing her cousins and friends love on her. I was grateful to see that and be a part of that.

    The don’t look back. I think when I see stuff like that I wonder if I am strong enough in relationships to have that. For people to know that and want to celebrate me like that. But that’s not the right mindset. I need to be grateful for my now and relationships and not envying others.

    Also a former crush is here. And although I have no feelings, something in me wants to go back to having feelings. I don’t know if it’s because i miss the feeling of desiring someone or because I’ve made rejection a part of me, but we’re not going back. Especially because we’re actually friends now and there’s no point ruining it for ghost feelings.

    I pray we get back to NY well. I pray for those homeless in this storm and that they get warmth and you will make a way for them. I pray for those who aren’t prepared for this snow storm that you will comfort them.

    Thanks God.

  • Be Still (1/23/26)

    First, I’m still cracking up about how you showed myself who I am and I need to stop worrying (read my last post for real time updates). I think it served as a good reminder about that you got me. I am protected and seen by you.

    I don’t know why I can’t remember the songs on my heart when I wake up. Last week I wwas so good and now I feel myself falling. Not just with this, but with going to the gym, cooking, etc. Now the motivation is low. Sigh and now I need to move beyond my flesh and desires.

    But today was calm. Still waiting for the job update. I did do a lot of excel skills refresh. i actually haven’t done excel in a very long time (since I got laid off and I need to make sure my skills are still as strong as I’ve claimed on my resume). I’m even trying to make a list, so I don’t make errors that I did in my previous job. Trying to learn lol.

    There’s a huge snowstorm which has changed some plans. I was supposed to go back to my parent’s home Sunday morning from my friend’s place in Philly. But now I’m doing a day trip to Philly and coming back before the storm hits. Oof.

    It was so funny because I was not thinking the storm was that big. But church got cancelled, plans got cancelled, apparently the grocery stores are empty. I’m in shock!

    My church had a prayer meeting today and it was powerful. And it’s so funny because we broke up in small groups and during the group this song came in my heart. And I know this was God because I haven’t heard this song in YEARS.

    But yea, I think that’s what I need. to open my eyes. I want to see you in everything. In the waiting, on the mountains, in the valleys. Everything. We then prayed about waiting and seeking your kingdom, and I also hope that I stay grateful and have a thankful heart. I need that lol.

    Reflecting on this week, every time we do a corporate fast the 2nd week is the calmest in terms of fasting, but you really correct me the most. This year, you showed me how much of a Pharisees I act and how much I judge others, especially if I subconsciously don’t agree with their decisions or their methods.

    Alright, I’m going to chill now. Thanks for a calm Friday.

  • I need to stop worrying

    Today I woke up and my heart was heavy. And I don’t think I got the job. Granted, this could be over worrying, but they were supposed to reach back out on Wednesday. It’s Friday now. Normally when that happens, you didn’t make it and they forgot to send the “We regret to inform you” email.

    I’m sad and tired. And I’m just tired. It’s really funny, there was a sermon i watched after having my prayer breakdown (crying and screaming while praying). I’ll tag it below. The song “Even if” by Naomi Raine and Anthony Evans has also been playing.

    Lol, as I’m writing the recruiter just reached out telling me they’re at an offsite and haven’t had chance to debrief…welp.

    I know God is looking at me like you always worry before it happens and for why? But this morning was beautiful in because I was fasting, I couldn’t go to other distractions and just had to talk to him. Normally what happens is I ignore these feelings or say it is well and then wake up at 5 AM and have a full breakdown (it’s happened at least twice in the past 9 months ahaha)

    I think one thing that I’ve realized is I feel undesirable. Relationally and professionally. So, every time I get a no, it’s confirmation that I’m not desired and no one is telling me what’s wrong with me. So then I started to believe my hope was in vain and preparing myself for disappointment. Which is so funny because it would’ve hurt twice. I need to stop doing that.

    God, I thank you that you love me even in my flaw state and with all my insecurities. That, you are good to me. Forgive me when I have been impatient and forgetting that your time isn’t my time. Help me to endure whatever comes.

  • Distracted (1/22/26)

    Hi God,

    Today was a weird day. As in, although I was fasting I was fully distracted all day. First, I went to bed extremely late (4 AM) and woke up at 12. And then I’ve just been distracted. I haven’t heard back from the job and my devotion ended so I’ve just been…bleh. I played Sims a lot today. I don’t know it was weird. And I found a new card game (no gambling lol) that’s also taken a lot of my time. I think I also use distractions to stop worrying. And I think to think about the fact that I don’t know what I am doing.

    God told me to read Psalms all year. I was supposed to read Psalm 27. I didn’t read it until 6pm.

    I think when I worry, I try to distract myself instead of sitting with why I am worried. Right now, I think this job in North Carolina is the job God has called me. But what if it’s not? I would then be starting from square 1. And what if it is? TGhen I would be starting over.

    Right now, what’s really scary is that I don’t know. And I’m tired of waiting. And I’m especially worried because I’ve told. And what if it isn’t? But what if it is?

    I’m worried because I don’t know. And for me, trust comes with knowledge. Which is why certain aspects of faith (knowing God will show up) is easy versus the other parts (when or how it’ll look).

    And I don’t know what I’m supposed to pray because all I really want is for this season to be over. And I’m so scared of being hurt or disappointed again. Because this isn’t the first time, I’ve had hope that the job was it. Or that I don’t need to search anymore and then when I get the rejection email I have to pick myself up and start over. It takes strength to continue to start over, but I am tired. I want this to be over.

    And if I’m being honest, I think my time and season in New York is coming to an end. But, I’ve told God. I won’t move until he tells me to. I just want him to tell me.

    I’ll end with a prayer. Because I think I need that right now

    ” Father Lord. Thank you. You are a good God and a good father. I thank you Lord that even in an unproductive day you are still speaking and seeking me. You still crave intimacy with me. Right now, I don’t know the future. But you do. And I’m trying to prepare my heart for pain, but I really just want to trust in you and not worry and not focus on pain. Trust that this path is the right path. Help me to rest in you. To find comfort in you during the unknown. During the “Why” days. Or the “how much longer” days. I pray and ask that this North Carolina job is mine, only if it’s in your will (but I think it is). But if it’s not, give me the strength to pick myself up and say it is well and start over. I am afraid of how much longer this will take. But when I am afraid, I put my trust in you. So help me to trust you wholeheartedly. Even in my fears and doubts to trust you. I feel like my faith is a mustard seed. I think yes but then immediately “what if no”. I give it all to you. And the next couple of days, show me and remind me how good you are and how good it can get. And when this season ends, let me not keep the journey to myself, but let me share so that others can be inspired and see that the God I serve is real. I love you. Thank you for loving me first.”
    in Jesus’ name.

    Amen.

  • Bleh (1/21/26)

    Dear God,

    Hi lol.

    Today was a lazy day. I caught up on all of my sleep (almost 8 hours woohoo!)

    I also woke up a little ill today. And it’s probably because it’s so cold. And I did absolutely nothing except apply to jobs and sleep. I was really tired.

    So, remember that yes thing. I thought it was about a job I had already applied for but what if it’s not? What if it’s a new one? Sigh, I don’t know.

    I don’t like not knowing. But I feel like I do but what if it’s not?

    I also watched a sermon on Psalm 26

    I did go to the gym! And I did write a blog about the servant’s heart.

    But otherwise, nothing has changed.

    I also had a song, but I forgot (grr)

    See you tomorrow!

    Tisa Ibori

  • A Servant’s Heart

    What am I doing it for?

    A question that I’ve been sitting with today. God gave me a warning last night through someone else’s dream about how I was causing fractures instead of unity in the church. And this morning I think he revealed it’s because I’m not going after it with a servant heart posture.

    And Jesus called them to him and said to them, “You know that those who are considered rulers of the Gentiles lord it over them, and their great ones exercise authority over them. But it shall not be so among you. But whoever would be great among you must be your servant, and whoever would be first among you must be slave of all. For even the Son of Man came not to be served but to serve, and to give his life as a ransom for many.”
    – Mark 10:42-45     ESV

    Jesus gathered them all together and said to them, “Those recognized as rulers of the people and those who are in top leadership positions rule oppressively over their subjects, but this is not the example you are to follow. You are to lead by a different model. If you want to be the greatest, then live as one called to serve others. The path to promotion comes by having the heart of a bond-slave who serves everyone. For even the Son of Man did not come expecting to be served by everyone, but to serve everyone, and to give his life as the ransom price for the salvation of many.”
    – Mark 10:42-45 TPT

    Correction

    This past 2 weeks have been great for growing with God. But part of growing is also pruning and correction. I have a tendency to take correction as judgment. Similar to Cain, I have a tendency to take correction as rebuke/hatred. I don’t see correction as love. And I’m praying that God changes my heart so that I don’t get offended when people correct me. And maybe it’s my growing up and constantly getting criticized and thinking that I can’t do anything right and getting hypercriticized, so I now think that any correction/discipline is them picking on me.

    But what does it mean, when the one who created me, who knows me from the inside out and still loves and desires me, corrects me out of love? And I don’t take it as love but as criticism?

    And how does this connect to being a good servant? Well, one I have to be open to feedback and correction. About me. And I think I’ve spent so much time protecting myself because I feel like I’m the only one who has always protected me or looked out for me. But I think there’s also fear. fear that I’m not loved with correction. In the book “The Faithful Ones: Lessons for the Prodigal’s Older Brother”, author Shade Sabitu writes that Cain was,

    “Confronted with God’s determination of what was holy and acceptable and what was not, and his mind was immediately tormented with doubts about who he was and where he stood with God. To him, there was no way God could have enough love for both him and his brother. He could not stand the assumption that God saw something worthy in Abel that He didn’t see in him”

    Similar to Cain, I tend to believe that when God corrects me, he is saying he doesn’t love me. But, I think, if I’m being honest, I take correction as people saying that I’m not worthy. But those are lies of the enemy.

    “Listen to advice and accept discipline, and at the end you will be counted among the wise.”
    – Proverbs 19:20     ESV

    A rebuke goes deeper into a man of understanding than a hundred blows into a fool.
    – Proverbs 17:10     ESV

    Do not reprove a scoffer, or he will hate you; reprove a wise man, and he will love you.
    – Proverbs 9:8     ESV

    The question is why bring this up when discussing servant’s heart? Because a core aspect of being a servant is humility.

    In the different version of Mark 10:42-45, the word servant, bondslave, and slave are seen as interchangeable. Although there are differences in terms of pay expectations and choice of freedom, the consensus that both versions agree on is that the person is bound to a master.

    So, if the master says you aren’t doing something well, shouldn’t I trust that the master knows best and fix what I was doing to reflect the desire of the master? Similarly, if I am to have a servant’s heart, should I not have the same attitude when people who I trust (whether it’s a teacher, friends, or family) correct me? And not just accept the correction but love them and have a glad heart when they do it.

    Proverbs 12:1 ESV states that Whoever loves discipline loves knowledge, but he who hates reproof is stupid.” And right now, I don’t love it because I take it too personally. I want to learn from Cain and not let doubt or hypersensitivity turn into envy/a hardened heart.

    Humility

    I have valued knowledge and knowing things my entire life. But I think that even though I try not to, I do think that I am better than people because of what I know. Just being honest. It’s not good. It’s quite wrong because it’s also not true. And I am very grateful to God that God showed me my pride and I have asked to have a servant’s heart.

    The danger is the church. I grew up in the church and although I feel like I try not to emulate the church hurt that was put on me (it wasn’t gentle correction and it wasn’t biblical but it was using God to justify it), I am doing that. And that’s really hard. I said this in a previous post, but I am acting like a Pharisee especially in thinking that my way is the only way.

    I was reading Psalm 25 and verse 4 says Make me to know your ways, O Lord; teach me your paths. And I thought that was just about my life and my choices. And it is. But it’s about everything in life. And I think the humbling (and hard) part for me is also realizing that my way isn’t the only way. God has numerous ways and paths to do things or to achieve his goals. Truthfully, I think the only thing that has one path is how to receive salvation (through Jesus) which he states in John 14:6.

    But then who am I? To try and force God into one way or style. And he gives clear commandments. And more importantly, God created us to be wonderfully and fearfully made as the versions of us he created us to be. Which means others will interpret things differently than I will or do things differently than me. And that doesn’t mean that its wrong or ungodly, it’s just a different path.

    And I think part 0of that humility is not thinking I’m the only one who God can use and call. I wrote about the walking around the church like Jericho. And if I’m being honest, I think that I’ve kind of had an inflated ego. I’m realizing that my problem isn’t necessarily obedience (even though I tend to struggle at times with that), it’s not having an inflated ego that God used me. And I think that comes from childhood years of feeling unseen and abandoned and feeling unspecial. And I don’t know how to navigate this. The honor of being called and chosen and the enjoyment that our relationship is more intimate while also still being humble to know the King of kings chose me with an assignment. Sigh this is hard. Because I don’t want to neglect and ignore the growth, but I also don’t want to be inflated about the growth and my role.

    I saw someone say this (It was actually Percy Jackson: The Last Olympian) and I think it rings true: You are not the hero. And I think part of my desire to be seen also is a desire to be the main character. To be the hero. But I’m not. Jesus is. He’s the one who saved all of humanity, the one who saved me. And I am honored and also confused on why he chose me. And right now, it’s not the yes that’s the issue, I guess it’s the heart posture.

    So if there is any encouragement in Christ, any comfort from love, any participation in the Spirit, any affection and sympathy, 2 complete my joy by being of the same mind, having the same love, being in full accord and of one mind. 3 Do nothing from selfish ambition or conceit, but in humility count others more significant than yourselves. 4 Let each of you look not only to his own interests, but also to the interests of others. 

    5 Have this mind among yourselves, which is yours in Christ Jesus, 6 who, though he was in the form of God, did not count equality with God a thing to be grasped,[b] 7 but emptied himself, by taking the form of a servant,[c] being born in the likeness of men. 8 And being found in human form, he humbled himself by becoming obedient to the point of death, even death on a cross.
    – Philippians 2:1-8

    So, to be a servant is considering others more significantly. And maybe this is selfish, but how do I consider others more while also simultaneously loving myself and seeing myself the way Jesus and God and the Holy Spirit see me? Because it feels like I go on extremes. I’m either extremely self-deprecating or I think I’m so above everything. Sigh, I just want to honor God but sometimes it feels like I’m consistently messing up. But maybe that’s the problem. I’m centering myself and my “progress” instead of centering God and what he wants.

    Conclusion

    Ok. To be a servant is a lot. And I only touched on two themes: Humility and Correction. But there’s more. And what is true is that I have a lot to work on, but also that there’s joy in this. Joy in the progress. And the beautiful thing is that I’m not doing it by myself. And I think what God wants is my honest and authentic self. I see things that I have to be mindful of for unity. In Ephesians 4, Paul writes

    I therefore, a prisoner for the Lord, urge you to walk in a manner worthy of the calling to which you have been called, with all humility and gentleness, with patience, bearing with one another in love, eager to maintain the unity of the Spirit in the bond of peace. There is one body and one Spirit—just as you were called to the one hope that belongs to your call— one Lord, one faith, one baptism, one God and Father of all, who is over all and through all and in all. But grace was given to each one of us according to the measure of Christ’s gift.

    We are a body of Christ and when there is discomfort or Jesus is the center. And for the body of Christ to work, we all must have a servant’s posture. And that also means looking inward to what God is trying to tell all of us about things he’s correcting for his glory.

    So, to answer the question that I wrote up in the beginning of this article, what am I doing it for? It has to be for God. But also, to fulfill the Great Commission and to keep unity. But also, realistically. If Jesus the King of Kings, prince of peace, mighty God, Everlasting Father, and so many more names (S/o Isaiah 9:6) humbled himself daily and was seen as the servant’s servant, how much more I? And you? And if Jesus, the son of God, washed the feet of his disciples, including the one who would betray him and the who would deny him, how much more me to those who annoy me or hurt me?

    God help us. And he will. If we ask.

    Would love to hear others thoughts on this topic! Iron sharpens iron and I love different perspectives 🙂

  • Many Voices (1/20/26)

    Hi God,

    Today’s song was the voice of God. Whew, thank you Lord that I have the privilege of hearing your voice anywhere. That I don’t have to always go to an altar to feel your presence.

    Because you do. You live in me through the Holy Spirit.

    Today was odd. Not in a bad way, just neutral. I had a substitute teaching opportunity this morning and my plan was to do my fast from 7am to 6pm and eat beforehand. Well, jokes on me because I woke up late and barely had any time to get ready before catching my train. So I guess I honored the 6-6 (actually more like a 6-7 but will get there later). And then guess what? The train was delayed…for 30 minutes. I had to take another train and uber to get there on time.

    While I was there, I wasn’t even subbing. I was just proctoring which meant signing kids in when they went to the bathroom and watching them take their standardized test. Without a phone. For 9 hours. It was excruciatingly boring.

    But the good thing is, I got closer to you. I read a great book about the prodigal son’s brother (The Faithful Ones: Lessons for the Prodigal’s Older Brother, you should check it out). The book reminded me about how God’s favor and grace is an infinite well and how I should not be jealous when other people receive things I desire because God loves me and God has favored me everyday even if I don’t consider those favor (example Cain got to live a long life, something Abel never did). It also encouraged me to be my brother’s keeper as Jesus is the ultimate keeper.

    So yea. Ended working at 5. I was trying to get something to eat for 6 before prayer meeting. The buses were being slow so I ended up getting to the restaurant at 645 and ate at 7.

    Prayer team was good. It was interesting- the song being Voice of God because I heard it through other people’s dream, tv shows, and your word. But it was still loud.

    After that I had a really good chat with a friend and actually ended really late (hence why the late post)

    Something I noticed is that there was a radio today of your songs speaking to me in my head. And although I wasn’t in the bible explicitly, you were still speaking through books and others. I’m glad you don’t have one medium that we’re limited to hearing your voice.

    Thanks God!

    I don’t have much else to say. I’m going to sleep.

    Gn!

    Tisa Ibori