This is Me: Finding My Voice

So this love thing sucks. Because it’s hard. Because I don’t want to. Because it’s frustrating. My cousins are in town. And I love them because I have to, but also I’m closer to one than the other. And I don’t ever have 1:1 time to catch up. And the other one is, to say it blankly, annoying. She asks a lot of questions, is very touchy and infiltrative, and is just always talking about how different New York is from London. I think it’s a combination of I need space and too much invasion. I think I also take time to warm up. I have a relationship with one and not the other.

I think I’m also trying to find the difference between gossip and ranting. I don’t know. Today and other days I’m reminded that I need to focus on the log in my own eye instead of the speck in others. And it’s so funny, I consistently be talking trash about how other Christians are so judgmental, but look at me. Doing the exact same damn thing. Just in a different format. Sin is still sin. And

Lord help me to love. Holy Spirit take over. Because my flesh is weakkkkkkkkkk