This is Me: Finding My Voice

First, I’m still cracking up about how you showed myself who I am and I need to stop worrying (read my last post for real time updates). I think it served as a good reminder about that you got me. I am protected and seen by you.

I don’t know why I can’t remember the songs on my heart when I wake up. Last week I wwas so good and now I feel myself falling. Not just with this, but with going to the gym, cooking, etc. Now the motivation is low. Sigh and now I need to move beyond my flesh and desires.

But today was calm. Still waiting for the job update. I did do a lot of excel skills refresh. i actually haven’t done excel in a very long time (since I got laid off and I need to make sure my skills are still as strong as I’ve claimed on my resume). I’m even trying to make a list, so I don’t make errors that I did in my previous job. Trying to learn lol.

There’s a huge snowstorm which has changed some plans. I was supposed to go back to my parent’s home Sunday morning from my friend’s place in Philly. But now I’m doing a day trip to Philly and coming back before the storm hits. Oof.

It was so funny because I was not thinking the storm was that big. But church got cancelled, plans got cancelled, apparently the grocery stores are empty. I’m in shock!

My church had a prayer meeting today and it was powerful. And it’s so funny because we broke up in small groups and during the group this song came in my heart. And I know this was God because I haven’t heard this song in YEARS.

But yea, I think that’s what I need. to open my eyes. I want to see you in everything. In the waiting, on the mountains, in the valleys. Everything. We then prayed about waiting and seeking your kingdom, and I also hope that I stay grateful and have a thankful heart. I need that lol.

Reflecting on this week, every time we do a corporate fast the 2nd week is the calmest in terms of fasting, but you really correct me the most. This year, you showed me how much of a Pharisees I act and how much I judge others, especially if I subconsciously don’t agree with their decisions or their methods.

Alright, I’m going to chill now. Thanks for a calm Friday.